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One of my texts

2011-11-07T17:02:00.000-08:00

Well long time without posting something around here. So i felt like i should post something today, since i've been missing write in english, im sort of without practice, so forgive me for my errors. That text i wrote last week, just came to my mind...maybe its a tric of my mind or not...who knows..lol anyway enjoy!!! ;)

YOUR LIGHT

With my eyes open

I search for you

I’m blind and senseless

I can not reach you

It’s hard to follow your light

Strong as I can be

Your shine still gets me weak

So I close my eyes

And your shadows come so clear

I’m not afraid to disappear

As long as I follow you

I feel your heart beating

I feel you’re near breathing

So I open my eyes

And see your heart next to mine.

So I look at you

And now I know

What brought me to you

was the Light of your love.

kind of lame but i like it!! see ya blog! :P

Life change

2011-01-19T08:06:00.000-08:00

2011

My year begun with a lot of changes.

Change of attitude, change of friendship, change of life.

I feel even more mature than the last year. Maybe I grew up faster bcoz of a few things I’m passing through.

It’s a fact that at this month I’m more free, having much more fun and not so dependent. I’m going out without my best friends, thing that before I didn’t do, and having fun as well

I guess there’s a moment in your life you have to live for you, think more on you, than enjoy people around you. You need to know yourself, than meet people and get to know them.

Yesterday I’ve watched a movie about it. EAT LOVE AND PRAY.

The principal character , Liz, at the beginning didn’t knew herself, and the decide to travel to places that would help her to get her balance back. I guess everyone should do that at least once in life. KNOW YOURSELF. GET INTO YOUR SOUL.

My resolutions to this New Year, one of it, it’s to know myself even more, and give the attention and love to those who really love me. I’m a little tired to give all myself up to a person and that person doesn’t care about it. I’m tired to be the GOODGIRL and be stabbed in the back, and forgive all times.

So I decide for a life change. I hope I can make, and I hope my life gets better.

See you blog later

Just Writing

2010-11-20T19:11:00.000-08:00

Humm
Here its me again...
Acctually ive been wanted to write more and more, but sometimes i dont know how to express myself.. Its fun coz i know no one read this blog, and bcoz of that i could write about what im feeling or what i want... without fearing, but i guess sometimes im even afraid to say things to myself. Weird.
I guess everybody have moments like that...at least i hope or ill be a lunatic! lol Anyway..Its been 3 weekends that im not into parties and stuff...i cant drink...i do wanna to be wasted but o cant...dont know why... Terrible... I guess i need to let some stuff in my head go away...clear my mind..
Its to many things to process and live. I wish it would be easier...but isnt... theres a few things its hard to let go...its hard to step foward..but i know eventually it will pass, always does.
So i guess its good for today...saturday night and im home..jezz what is happening!! lol!!! im turning off now!!! later blog! :P

Lost

2010-11-03T18:02:00.000-07:00

Does everybody know how is to be or feel lost?
Sometimes in our lives we pass through moments we have a few choices to make surrounded of lots of doubts and then we say: I'm lost.
Actually at this moment we are not lost, we're just not looking for the choices with open mind...the answer its right over there.. just need to decide for the one.
Like you can see..not all moments that we feel lost means we are.
What i'm trying to say is that sometimes we are complaning too much, and lazy enough to try to find the answer for all questions and doubts..and sometimes its right above our eyes..we are just too damn blind to see;
Today i felt lost a few times...maybe i still am about a few things..but ill try to clear my mind and let my thoughts guide me to the right answer ( if exist one). Or maybe ill forget that im feeling it and maybe it will pass.
So if you a feeling lost...look ahead..never down...and i'm sure you will get through this.

Well I will do that. at least ill try

be back soon

Take my Hand

2010-03-04T17:34:00.000-08:00

This week I haven't enough time to think about some problems I've been through. But the time I had I'd thought a lot.
I feel helpless about this situation. As my hands are tied and there's nothing I can do about it.
Sometimes people we love make mistakes all the time, and we always try to forgive and forget, letting the problem behind us but some cases are repeated constantly, and this cicle of mistakes start to wear down any relationship that the person who made it are envolved, romantic, or a friendship.
So i ask: What I can do about this case? Should i wait for the person to come over and talk, or should i let this behind AGAIN and let this person commited over and over the same mistake?
I know sometimes we can't control some of ours impulses, but we can count on a friend to help us. Sometimes know that we have some problem it's 50% of the way to heal it. And the rest 50% we can ask for help.
If that person is your friend she will be by your side no matter what. Just talk.

I'm here. Take my hand.

I miss You.

2009-01-26T17:02:00.000-08:00

Time passes and what left for us?
Memory? Picture?
Every single day we live our lives without measuring the possibility of dont have that person or that thing on our side.
At that special moment we just want to live intensely, without worries, just having fun.
The problem begins when its end.
In a second your life turn to be like used to and nothing seems to be perfect, everything is wrong and u get bored.
Today i'm passing through a moment like it.
A emotional hangover, that seems to drag me into this room feeling nothing but a desire of rewind that time.
Was great. Was fun and every single person that i'd meet ill keep in touch ,regardless of their options.
Wonderful time that ill keep in Memory? YES, in pictures SURE, but in my heart specially.

AH Nice Video to VOTE!!!!

2008-03-06T14:49:00.001-08:00

Hey you guys!!
Well this post its a ask for help!!
My brother its running for win a apartment at this promotion..this its the video we made!!!! i know some of you dont speak portugues but u can vote anyway!!!!
Just Put ur name at the NOME field and Email and done!! There some strars on the top so mark all of them ok?!! I would really enjoy it!! thanksssss!!!!

THE LINK: http://www.cadeomeuprimeiroape.com.br/index.aspx?id=179

Upset for nothing?

2008-03-05T10:09:00.000-08:00

Whats up u guys!!!?
Well, today i feel like i should write about something its getting me nervous!!
BRASIL.
Yeah!! thats the subject im upset about.
First of all i'll tell about something that happen to me last week.
I was buying some stuff to my mother and when i came back to my car, right beside it was a sir, i cant lie but it freak me out a bit, he was sitting wearing dirty clothes and say something to me.i really thought he was asking money. He was but that was one thing that made me thought about it. He said: I'm not a theave dont worry....i just wanna know if u ladie could help me pay a shot of a medicine...i have cancer and i cant pay it!!! "...Jeez...at the time my head was on the floor.... and what make me more upset its that we cant belive in those things for sure, i mean we can but we always have some douts about it first...at this case i wanna to belive...he seens to be honest!! i gave 2 reais...all i had at the moment.
But think straight...if that guy was telling a lie?? And was asking the money for buy some kind of drug ( not medicinal at all)!! Its a thing to thinking huh .
Brazil its getting more and more corrupted....we citizen of this country are the most responsable of!!! Thats Outrageous.
The other thing that im upset about its about JOB in brazil...specially in Aracaju.
Damn, i knwo i dont have a great graduation course, i know its not valorized but i know i can do some jobs..but they wanna someone with experience... For GOds Sake, how do they wanna me to have experience if dont aloud me to work...its a kind of retard thought...Jeez...im graduated, im a MBA student ( great grades btw) and i also know english (btw id learned it by myself) and also im learning french at the same way!! Isnt it counted?? i have the will for work and learn stuff easily!...anyway....i'm just an upset person right now..and something i cant not let it behind...
i'm not sorry for i just say so if it offended you..get overrr it!
Im off now!

New addiction!

2008-02-25T15:31:00.002-08:00

Well as usual i spent to many days without show up around here huh!!
I have nothing to say tho.
These day im getting more and more addicted to pc games, more specifically Call of duty 4.
I know what u thinking ..." A girl playing these kind of war game??" ... YEah friend...i like these games..specially if you are angry enough to kill someone!! So kill it virtually! heheheh
WEll i just got into a Clan...called 1RI ( primeiro regimento de infantaria) or in english
First regiment of infantry.....well this kind of clans let your game more interesthing coz u start to train strategy and course make a lot of new cool friends interacting on TS ( team Speak)!
Anyway..ill continue playing these kind of games and ill not let my feminine side disappeared coz one way its not connected to another.
So thats it..i got nothing else to say.
see ya

And if u wanna play with me just give me a hands up!!
kissesss =***

Songs that i Wrote!!!

2008-01-21T17:05:00.000-08:00

Well, Well!! Long time without writing around here huh?!
So I was going truth some time that I got no inspiration to write about anything. I guess I’m still uninspired but today I felt like I should write something. I don’t even know why, coz nobody usually sent any comments about what I write, but I’ll do that anyway.
I decide today to put in here a song that I wrote a few years ago, when I was living in Curitiba city. That time I spent to many time doing nothing so I started to compose my own songs to play with my guitar.
That first song called “ Whats Wrong with me?” its nothing about myself just a fiction song about some case a heard when I was compounding it . Hope you enjoy even though without a melody.

Whats Wrong With me?
by: Jubs

Sometimes I wish I could hide

Behind those stars

And catch a little of the shine for me.

Someday I’m gonna find a way

To make me feel ok

To make me feel something.

I can feel the air

But I can’t breath

So what’s wrong with me?

I don’t know if I could be alive

Because, I don’t even had a life.

So, please someone rescue me!

WHY, why I can’t be alive?

I just wanna live without a pain!!

So why, Why I have to die?

Everyday, when I open my eyes

I feel an empty inside

I see my hearth going away

Every night, when I look at the sky

I stay into my mind

And Let my thoughts guide me.

I can feel the air

But I can’t breath

So what’s wrong wit me?

I don’t know if I could be alive

Because, I don’t even had a life.

So, please someone rescue me!

WHY, why I can’t be alive?

I just wanna live without a pain!!

So why, Why I have to die?

Why I have to die?

I just wanna live one time!!

Thats it then. Maybe another time ill put more songs!! ;)

see ya around!

BEST TIME SPENT EVER!!

2007-12-19T11:23:00.001-08:00

I was reading the last post i've made about Time. Interesting, bcoz i realised that time inst everything, but the quality of the time u spend it is. I've made that post b4 go to Brasília, capital of my country and beautifull city. It was the most wonderfull 20 days i'd spent in 2007. Good company, best friends , nice stay and the best time well spent ever. Pool, parties, laughts, videos, pictures, mall....i did everything i could and if i could more i would do more. Now what had last its pure good memory and lots of history to tell to our grandchildrens. My Friends was let behind ,but i always keep them into my hearth and mind.
And If im happy today its bcoz they exist.

TIME

2007-11-18T15:33:00.000-08:00

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Time Time Time Time Time Time Time....

HURRY UP!!!!

(counting the days)

Before sleep.

2007-10-14T19:06:00.000-07:00

I just realised the other day how many time i spend thinking when i go to sleep. Its so weird how at those few minutes (or hours) i think about a lot of stupid and important things. I guess that its the time that i think the most, more than any other time of the day.

Sometimes i spend 2 or 3 hours before going sleep thinking and planing about my future with so many confidence and perseverence , but in some way i wake up and forget everything, or at least get lazy and try not to think about it until the other night come.

That its even so the most criative time i have, its when i have my insights when i get my thoughts and transform into a brilliant idea or not so much brilliant!!

Anyway, i just hate that, when i spend so many hours thinking and then realised its 4am and i have to wake up in a few hours. Thats really sucks!

Well, ill pray tonight to get a brilliant idea , that one i could sell and get a lot of money ! ;)

Thats ok for today.

Crap Music

2007-10-08T21:04:00.000-07:00

What can i consider Crap Music?
Well, it's so damn relative to answer that question huh?
There is some subjects that's it's kind of hard to argue about, like Religion, politics and , of course, the taste of music.
So why am i talking about it?
Simple!! I love music and at these days what i most hear at the radios stations it's CRAP MUSIC!
At least for me tho.!
Jeez..I live in a city that Junk music it's the TOP.
Arrocha;Forró (eletronic one) Brega...all those kind of terrible songs exist in here, Aracaju city!
I guess if the internet doesn't exist i would be screwed. What a wonderful tool to know about differents kind of music from differents parts of the world.
Anyway if you like crap, junky, awfull music there is something for you guys.But i'm warning you, if you dont like, do not waste your time ( like i did searching for it) clicking at this video and instead of it go to myspace looking for some new cool bands!

So that is it!
See you next time!!

HANGOVER

2007-09-30T19:40:00.001-07:00

Beer, wine, wisk, cachaça, vodka , Champs....in other word BOOZE.
Thats the kind of thing that u try to NOT like or stop but u cant control urself when u are in a party!!
People love to drink...better...to get drunk. Btw..i love it..
But there is a thing that i guess 90% of drinkers dont remember. THE HANGOVER.
Damn...when u wake up the day after a great party u think: Jeez... someone cut my head out pls!!! And Dont even saying about the "great" lost of memory process : Damn What a fuck i did last night!!!..so good huh??
well i guess all the great things have bad things involved. Thats the price we have to pay!
Anyway... if u dont wanna have a hangover ..stop to drink OR drink some beer when u wake up!!
Well im gonna stay here now...i still have to recover myself bcoz of the last night!!! lol
see ya

Get out of this Room.

2007-09-25T18:57:00.000-07:00

This week i'm a addicted. Addicted to silly games that just make us crazy. Logical games. Exist more stupid thing than logical games?? Sometimes they have a real objective with a awesome final, but mostly of the time they have nothing but hidden objects with no sense of logical. Click , Click , Click... Thats the sound that you most listened when u are playing it. Sometimes the object its right infront of you and you cant find it. Thank GOD to the blogs and Forums!! God blessed them!! :P Well ,i have nothing more to say... Ill make myself OUT of this blog now and get into to that stupid addiction. Dammit!!....

LOADING......

PEOPLE

2007-09-25T01:26:00.000-07:00

People exist to make trouble.
People exist to make happiness.
People exist just for exist.
Some People pass in your life just like a storm.
Others stay in your life like an air flowing around.
These can really make difference.
Can be around and mess with you.
Can be around and just watch things happend.
But what will do them do it right?
What will make them not ruin your life?
I guess people really shouldn´t make anything.
Just let the life decide.
What is wrong or right.
And then live their lives in piece